it has been a fruitful 08/09 jan.
08 jan:

i went for a gathering with my jc girl clique!
the belles are namely sabrina, minfei, sock, wanjing:D
and there're like two dudes there accompanying their dude-dess.
now that you mentioned about it, MIN FEI, WE REALLY SHOULD HAVE TAKEN PICTURES TO COMMEMORATE THE BEAUTIFUL NIGHT AT TIMBRE!
t'was my first time over at timbre, a pub cum restaurant, which seems more like a restaurant.
the food is pretty decent over there, the price is manageable, and it seems like such a vibrant atmosphere. most people gather there with their friends, awww awww awww. we should have stayed longer for the live band! let's go there again!

09 jan:
mum's birthday celebration (steamboat dinner)

my baby cousins came over, and boy, it was a havoc moment!:D
kiddddddssss running around, screaming, play pretend, laughing , crying!
i feel like a nanny, and yet i know they respond by their nature. we can't blame them, can we?:)
ok, so we went on a camera-frenzy:)
here kids, your friendly tour guide AMANDA TOH (NOT TOE YOU BANANA) shall help you take many many pictures ok?
and there you have it, the piccies!
PS: my dad tried out the webcam's distortional lenses function.
COOL!;)

had a panic attack at night.
but i know i'll be fine:)
i just know it.

i've said this to a few people, i'm 'leaving' VE.
:) i decided that i wanna go for other experiences, pursue other things.
and VE at the moment, is not my career option.
yes it's true, i love talking to people and at VE, i'm able to do so.
i love doings sales, love training my agents, love the people in company.
but i feel like my time in VE is up.
(except maybe when i have sales, i can still return to submit it)

as of recent, i've been diligently sourcing out potential recruiters and job opportunities.
called to go down for several interviews:)

a few days left till school reopens, and i'm missing school so terribly already!
WHY CAN'T SCHOOL START ON 4TH JAN ALSO.
I LOVE GOING TO SCHOOL!
esp when i'm doing my favourite modules and i declared major alrdy!

and and and, i love 5712, we're going taiwan this year.
mum has agreed to let me go as long as im the one paying for everything:D
imma happy kid.
give me my fluffy:)

PS: YUEWEN, FROG IS NOT CUTE.hahaha

:) many smiles for a day like this.
thank you for those lovely assuring smses, my friends.

i don't wanna contest for something like this.
there's no need to.
life's all about moving forward, not looking backwards thinking where have we gone wrong, why didn't it work out.
and daily, i see anger and darkness eating you up.
it's not worth it.
do you love yourself?
if you do, stop.
and, if you do, why not just take a look.
no one's doing anything to hurt you, look who's hurting you.

there's a reason for everything, every action, or every non-action.
can't you see what lies beyond the zoomed in frames of this picture?
you deserve joy, i deserve happiness as well.
there's no point in contesting for that.
may you find your joy soon.

look, maybe you can try this.
contest to live your life set ablazed with good times, this one. let us put to a secret challenge.
if i can live happily, and move on, why not you?
or are you afraid to give it a try.

:)

i know that fateful night has been trying.
has been hurting.
but it's okay.
it's an outward expression of all of your loves.
i just wanted all of you to know one thing.
i was getting ready to take a cab down to join you guys for the night party.
but i wasn't allowed to know where you're all are.
i admit that i should have joined earlier.
i'm sorry about that.
but nevertheless, it was harsh. not letting me in when i try to.
saying things that really made me tear.
that night i rmb, i welcomed the new year.

maybe, we should sit down and talk where both parties clarify and justify their own stand.
but overall, what envelopes us is love.
thank you for wanting me to be there:)
i learnt something from aaron,
you musn't look at the actions of that person but the heart behind those actions.

yesterday, it was as if God answered my prayers.
:) thank you my friend.
i love you.
thank you for that call.
to be honest, i didn't wanna reveal all these to you and i knew he would have said things like this to you guys, and yet why am i not defending myself?
cos i feel there's no point in doing so.
firstly, it doesn't work.
secondly, he's still my friend, i dont wanna defame him.

the new year is good.
it's a good start!:)
and i'm looking forward to meeting you people again, and im not ashamed to say that cos in the same way, this is my outward expression of love.
MUACKS!:)

oh man. it's the last last few moments of year 2009, and i just wanna say it has been a good year nevertheless!:)

sure there's ups and downs, but these makes life LIFE. haha.

there are a few groups of people i wanna speak to-
1) GANG OF 13 THEN BECOME 12 THEN NOW 11:
thank you all of you lovely people for entering my life 5 years ago! i really couldn't have imagined a life without any one of you, without all those stupid and retarded activities we had. as the years strode by, we grow, we mature altogether. this year has been trying for everyone of us, it;s a struggle to keep up with schedules, to comform and to sacrifice but i really hope everyone tries their best to make our outings happen! let us not wade away these 5 years and ongoing friendship! :)

2) to mr. good friend:
i know we have had a number of misunderstandings and conflicts unresolved. you seek to let them wriggle off by themselves but i want to let you know, what you've done, what you've tried so hard to possess is intimidating me. and i need time to cool off, to let it sink down. and i feel this cool off is best for both of us. you have your time to adjust to a more less hectic lifestyle. nevertheless thank you for being someone so close to me for these few years. i really treasure you. take care and no more wellowing in depression!

3) to mr. nice:
i never forget any of the nice things you've done for me. but becos i do not want to mislead you, i had to pretend like i didn't appreciate them. in fact, i showed subtle appreciation. i feel that you are one of the best guys around and you have it all when it comes to being the guy for many girls. i'm thankful to God for bringing you back to Christ, i'm thankful for the positive and closely knitted friendship we have, you are someone i really trust and depend alot on. yes, you've changed my life for the better just like i told you. and no matter rain or shine, our friendship stays you understand me? :) so don't keep things to yourself! share it with me, i will lessen your burden for you :D

4) to family:
this year has been rather positive, sure there are ups and downs. times when we are cold, times when we get heated up, but in the end love envelopes everything. and i just wanna let you know, beneath it all, i do love every single one of you, including the domestic helper who seems like a sister now. you've changed alot, become someone so unfamiliar and i hope you'd just return back to the sweet elder sister i've always looked upon. :)

5) to cell group:
i love you guys!:) SALT SHAKERS! we should have our group tee like we promised!:) and and and, i'm sorry on missing out on cell group meetings so often. i will prioritise my time better, give me a chance ok? and this year no matter how trying, whenever i go back to cell, it never fails to bring me such warmth as close as home. i thank God for these people, for each one of us are so different. we complement each other. we are the best ok! :D

6) to banana-fied:
thank you:) i thank God for getting to know you. and i look forward to times with you!

7) to MAKO-ians and VE-ians:
this is something really new. VE. this year. haha, i got to know this bunch of good looking and dynamic individuals! it has been so fun working with you people, i pocketed our smiles and bring it to work everyday! continue to work hard for your positions, and mako... TOP TEAM!:) ohoh, i love those supper nights and walking back home from office with heels!

FINANCIAL FREEDOM, FINANCIAL CONTROL.
PLEASE AMANDA, DO NOT OVERSPEND! IF NOT WORK HARDER!

okay, im gonna start my budget planning again.
this festive season is really a wallet exploding season!
and im clearing dan's standing order and paying for this month's locker fees.
FEEEEEESSSSSSSSS.
AND THAT'S LIKE 53 BUCKS ALRDY!

then the clique is going taiwan next yr.
hmmm, im gonna start working harder.
manda manda go!:)

okay, no more eat outs.
eat lunch/breakfast before going office.
and no spending on bubble tea like this.
each-a-cup caramel coffee for $2.50 every time, everyday 1 = $17.50 per week!
and it's not healthy altho highly addictive.
okok, so down budget everything.
it should be fine:D

kelvin and i went for canvassing today.
at the start, it was like rocky and progress was slow.
but as the night proceeds, kel feels the momentum and soon, he was limitless:)
i am really proud of him today! great job kelvin!:D

and of course, we hanged out with dear upline daniel and downline philip!
it was a great session of bonding and no matter what was the outcome of our designated task, we knew we had each other to hold on to. so happy!


and and and, there were awesome pictures from the belated christmas gathering at my place ytd!:)
singyee and i were like super-cam-on!:D




:)

this is a chinese song i stumbled upon not too long ago.
really sweet and romantic, simple yet heavy on the hearts for the romance and steadfast of lovers.

男人女人
by: Xu Ru Yun & Ah Mu Long 许茹芸，阿穆隆

Chorus

女:男人男人
Nan ren nan ren

多希望你是好人
Duo xi wang ni shi hao ren

多希望用你的真
Duo xi wang yong ni de zhen

让我不必再心疼
Rang wo bu bi zai xin teng

男:女人女人
Nu ren nu ren

我答应做个好人
Wo da ying zuo ge hao ren

我答应用我一生
Wo da ying yong wo yi sheng

来换你的快乐一生
Lai huan ni de kuai le yi sheng

:)

this Christmas is really vastly different from previous year's. more often than not, Christmas bodes the spirit of togetherness by enjoying a good festive celebration together with our loved ones. yet mine was of many problems to overcome, many stumbling blocks that evade happiness from my dictionary. but still, i'd like to thank God for all of this. in fact, Christmas couldn't have been more meaningful than this.

it is only in times of turmoil, do we see who stands up with us/for us. and this ascertained my love for them and vice versa. thank you shanshan, thank you glendon, thank you so many of you whom i love so much. the best gift for Christmas this year is the most priceless, true friendship that stands and lasts. :)

and with that, i shall conclude that this is one of the gooooooood and most unforgettable Christmas i've had so far.
-you.

i resumed my old blog, and forgone the new one.
:) cos when i retrieved the old posts and read thru them, it reminds me of how much i've matured and how much everyone whom i love so much has grown alongside with me.
and to me, such memories are priceless.
it's as if putting a price tag on it is so sinful, it crumbles the holiness of such a dainty episode of life.
and then, i think.
i wanna keep these.
i wanna keep them.
those memories, no one needs to forget.
we face it, good or bad :)


everyone goes thru a different journey, and i thank God we all went our different stories to become the awesome people we are now.
no matter who's reading this, no matter your anonymity, i just want all of you to know, you are uniquely you, and do not despise yourself or start to hate yourself if anything happens. the good stuff that happens to you brings you joy but it's only the bad stuff that happens that makes you learn :D

i feel like some really old motherly figure speaking about life leh!
and im profusely trying singlish singlish singlish so i can sound more intimate on my blog!

i read thru a few people's blogs, to find out more about how they used to lead their lives before i got to know them. and it contained wonderful/sweet events which promises to be inseparable to that someone, yet at the same time, devastating to him. and one thing i do not understand was, why is it that she can forget you just like that. and she makes the perfect r/s you were describing to me to be so menial, so un-noticed, so easily put aside! to be honest, i felt kinda insulted in your place when i read it, why the mentality when you regarded her with such importance. now i understand why your good friend do not share a good impression of her. cos as ladies, we know, she will hurt you. and she did.

what i wanna say is, she has never seen the shine in you.
you are like an unpolished gem, and once in a while she polishes, and just when you feel like you are finally illuminating your beauty, you are once again buried deep into the grounds where another miner finds you. we see beyond an unpolished gem, and even though ever since then, it is increasingly harder to make you feel assured, we want to still try to enter your life. remember your friends, for they love you! :) and move on, you know you haven't truly done so in your heart. it's not about forgetting that person, it's about yourself. have you, finally becomes prepared to move ahead and face the new world outside? you keep pushing me away. shows you haven't. but don't worry, becos i understand. and this time, instead of moving on alone, we can do so tgt. no fear! AMAAAAAAAAAAAANDA'S HERE! : D

OH MAN! SUCH A LONG AND OLD SOUNDING POST!
this is the result of not blogging for MONTHSSSSSSSS. :\
anyway, jon chan! you keep asking me out to organize the thingy!
hahaha, let's go to the farm, you gather your troops ok! :D:D
then we can all see dr. qibs tgt, and we can go milk the goat like i want to!